Anxious

Well, I am awaiting a very important phone call this evening. I'm nervous and anxious. After much much much discussion with the breeder I have in mind, and a compilation of final questions to ask... Its gonna be a hefty long distance call....

Good day at work for the most part, got to take a lunch break with the dogs, that doesnt happen much ( once every 3 months lol) it was a nice change.

Guy headed for work this morning... now to attempt to regain my routine, Its so messed up now. Tonight I came home and was all excited that there would be dinner ready like there has been most other nights, but to my sad realization, there wasnt. I forgot he was leaving, even though I was home for lunch and he wasnt, I guess I thought he was fishing or something.

Oh well....

On another note, I got to thinking today, you know we all have those friends... the ones we love dearly, however, from time to time, they just annoy you?!? ( Me anyways) Some days its like I can only handle a very little bit of their wacked out ideas. I hate when you have nothing to say to something they think is a wonderful idea, yet you feel you must say something. No matter if you think its completely off to left field. Fuck sometimes its not even in the right game.

Guess I just take my friend role a tad to seriously sometimes, I dont remember taking any sort of vows?? Not once did I stand up in front of my peers, held my hand on my heart and said something along the lines of:

Today I take you as my friend, I will laugh at your jokes, feel for your tears, support any hair brained idea you may have, scare away your fears.

I will take your side even if you are clearly wrong, and will go out of my way to defend you when someone talks down about you.

I vow to minimalize hurt if you look like a fool in the new outfit you think is hot, and find a clever new way to seem to believe you have lost another few pounds.... although clearly you seem to have gained a few.

I would in all honesty defend a friend, and minimalize hurt any way I could, however, somedays I really dont feel like dealing with some stuff that you think I really need to know.

Oh well, bit and parcel of being a good friend I guess?!?!

I guess it more or less irks me ( ooh havent used that word in a while) when I have something on my mind or something that I am thrilled about, but when I try to speak of it... its dismissed.

What cha gonna do???

Well a quote for today... to keep my excitement about the potential 2 year down the road puppy....

Inside every Newfoundland, Boxer, Elkhound and Great Dane is a puppy longing to climb on to your lap.
Helen Thomson

Tee hee.